My kind of therapy.

  You know those days when it’s 3am and you’ve just thrown the last load of laundry in the dryer, unloaded and re-loaded the dishwasher (again), wiped the counters, prepped the coffee maker for the morning and now you’re finally standing in the bathroom brushing your teeth and all you can think about is how badly you want to be asleep right now. Surely, God would understand one day of not reading your Bible… He must know how hard you worked today and that you are exhausted… but, that feeling inside of you, that voice that is telling you to just read (and that if you spent this time actually reading instead of dragging your feet you might be done by now) is God reminding you (me) that it’s times like these that you (I) need Him most.

“Crash landed in Antarctica…”

I can’t decide which I like more: reading in the morning and thinking about what I read all day or getting into bed exhausted and getting to spend time with my Best Friend as we “travel back in time” and learn about how He created the earth and moved mountains for His people whom He loves so much. 

One hundred percent of the time He finds a way to tell me what I need to hear. Whether I know it in the moment or not. There is not a time I can name that when I put down my Bible or said “Amen” that I still felt upset.

Candles and crosses.

I am wrong to think that I have to set an appointment/time to speak with God. He is always there for me (morning or night, rain or shine, headaches or laughs, sweatpants or skirts). I am the one who needs to slow down and reach out to Him.

My brother Kasey sends out a daily devotional and one the other day really opened my eyes… the jist of it being: 

God understands. He already knows me wholly and completely. I don’t have to make excuses as to why my hair is a mess or why I didn’t “call sooner” when I meet with Him …I don’t have to explain my prayers or why I am praying them (as we often try to reassure ourselves) because He already knows my heart. Yes, we still need to repent and confess our sins. Yes, we still need to take our burdens to Him. Yes, we still need to make known the desires of our hearts… but, if we can’t find the right words or don’t know exactly what’s going on… God still hears; and He knows.

Thank you Jesus.

This rose makes me happy!

Something that I have noticed recently is that for me making beds has become a “prayer closet.” 

During a less than ideal time in my life I was working multiple jobs and one (or two) of them was cleaning motel rooms. It was hard work. One of them was seven days a week. When you are alone, cleaning, for hours at a time you do a lot of thinking. Sadly, while a lot of talking to God did happen (me telling Him, and trying to “convince” myself, that “I knew He had a plan” and that “it was all for a reason and would get better”) it wasn’t always in the form of a prayer. 

But, He heard me. 

There is no way that I would have even been able to begin to pray for, or verbalize, what He has blessed me with… I didn’t know it was even possible. The family that I have around me, the beautiful life I get to call my “job,” no bills or loans or payments due, a paid off car (thank you Miss Margie, may God bless you), a paid off phone… Praise God! I don’t deserve any of this; but, it is a small example of how my Heavenly Father has shown me that He will move mountains for me if I would. just. “be. still.” and “trust in Him.”

“Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!” Psalm 27: 14

I used to hate making beds (but, not more than I hated doing the dishes; which is now another prayer closet and I thank God that I am able to wash the plates that brought my family and friends food/nourishment). Now, I see it as a task that needs to be done either way and that grumbling and procrastinating won’t make it anymore “enjoyable” …
There are thirteen of us, so that means twelve beds (Mama and Daddy have that two for one deal going). There are eight more beds in the guest house. I have made more beds in the last couple of years than your average 21 year old… the other day while I was making the bottom bed on one of the triple bunks in the guest house I had an “Ah-ha!” moment…

Pretty window pictures…

While I was making that bed, singing to myself (and laughing when I messed up the lyrics) I noticed that I felt an overwhelming feeling of peace. (While making those beds can be a workout…) I realized that my soul was at rest here as I prayed for restful sleep over those who would inhabit those beds in the days to come. 

It was like saying “Hello.” to an old friend. Seeing a story come full circle. To see myself in the same situation under drastically different circumstances. To see the different state of my heart, mind, body and soul… I literally stopped what I was doing and thanked God.

“Giving thanks always for all things to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ,” Ephesians 5: 20

I actually like making beds now because I see it as a way to serve my God and spend time with Him. I am so grateful my Heavenly Father is a patient, loving, caring God and that He cares enough about me to teach me, to grow me, to correct me… that when I was lost and “alone” and tired and I didn’t know what I wanted or needed and I couldn’t find the words… He still heard me.

…Well…this took a sharp, left, turn from where I thought it was going; but, this is what was put on my heart to share with you today. I sincerely hope that you enjoyed it and that it brought you the encouragement it was intended to. 

Do you ever find yourself trying to explain yourself to God?

Do you ever want to talk to God but you aren’t sure what to say/how to say it?

Can you think of a time that you know God heard your heart and answered your “unspoken” prayer?

Until next time; I pray your day, every day, is blessed.

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6 Comments Add yours

  1. Katie Diggles says:

    Summer, I have been greatly enjoying your blogs!!! God has definitely given you a beautiful gift, and out is refreshing and encouraging to hear about all God is doing and teaching you in your life during this very hard time in MY life! It is so amazing how the lessons you mention God teaching you I your blog are so similar, and even identical to the lessons God’s teaching… and TRYING to teach me at that same moment in MY life. May God continue to bless your godly endeavors, sweet Summer, and continue to guard your sweet spirit!!! Again, thank you so much for the timely encouragement – one sister to anther – for God knows it is so needed. I can’t wait till i can hug you and tell you all this in person!😊💗

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    1. Modestly Me says:

      Katie,

      Thank you so much for YOUR kind and encouraging words. What a blessing your comment was to me today. I am humbled and extremely grateful for this season in my life where I am able to share the things God is showing (and working to show) me in the hopes of encouraging others. I am sorry to hear that you are going through tough times… but, you will surely be in my prayers Miss Katie! God has a plan/purpose for the tough times too… We just don’t always see the blessings in them at the moment; but, you will. 🙂 Such a blessing to know you and your family. I can’t wait to see you (and your family) either!! 🙂

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  2. minstrelgirl451 says:

    It is amazing how cleaning can be such a relaxing, rejuvenating time. I really enjoy spending time with God throughout the day, but I don’t generally say much… For me, not knowing what to say, and having heart prayers answered, are more frequent than my spoken prayers.
    For example, I have wanted to watch “The War Within” for a while now, and recently I had thought it would bring me just the encouragement I needed, and an opportunity to talk through some things. Only, I never actually *asked* God for what I wanted. Yesterday Dad and I watched it together. Wow. It was better than I had imagined, and sparked a good talk together. I was so thankful! But did I actually say “Thank -you”?
    I am still working on overcoming this with my family. (I’m reminding myself to “Just Ask” 😉 ) There’s nothing wrong with being naturally quiet, but when it stifles communication… Sometimes I think I need to work on *saying* more, instead of just handing Him a pile of vaugue thoughts and feelings. But I’m so thankful for His patience, and that He hears and understands each thought.

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    1. Modestly Me says:

      Yes! Amen! What a beautiful example and confirmation! Thank you for sharing. 🙂 Our God is so awesome! I am so glad that you got to watch that with your dad and have a good conversation afterwards. It’s hard to “just ask” … I get that. For me it’s also hard to “just say it.” “It” being whatever I happen to be feeling/thinking about. I think sometimes it can start to feel overwhelming trying to think of everything we need to tell God before we forget. But, He heard our hearts the moment we thought about it/felt it. He knows. Resting in His grace is one of life’s biggest blessings. Thank you for commenting! Your words of encouragement and confirmation are always such a blessing. 🙂 I pray you have a blessed day.

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  3. Christine McKinney says:

    Dear Summer~
    Your post makes me think of a quote a friend sent me this week that I made into a sign for my kitchen cupboard:

    “This job has been given to me to do. Therefore, it is a gift. Therefore, it is a privilege. Therefore, it is an offering I may make to God. Therefore, it is to be done gladly, if it is done for Him. Here, not somewhere else, I may learn God’s way. In this job, not in some other, God looks for faithfulness.”
    ~Elizabeth Elliot

    I too, at 46, am still learning the lessons. I pray God moves you along so much quicker than I have moved. God is so good and patient! If we listen while young there is so much more blessing in our life, our relationship with Him, and others. Hugs dear young lady of God!
    ~Miss Christine

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    1. Modestly Me says:

      Dear Miss Christine,

      What a lovely quote! That is definitely a good reminder especially on days when we may be more tired. Thank you so much for sharing that timely encouragment with me. He is so good and so patient, amen. Hugs to you too!

      – Summer Rae

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