You know I find it kind of hilarious…
When I start writing, whether it’s here to you or in my journal to God, the words just seem to flow out of me so much more freely… naturally. Of course, I still use backspace, scribble out
this or that, reword certain phrases to make my point come across more clear…
But, sometimes when I go to talk, the words get all jumbled up and it doesn’t come out the way I intend it to.
A great deal of it could have to do with being able to sit here and really think about my words before I put them down. A lot of times in conversation I get excited or I have a thought and it tries to leave my mouth before I have had a chance to think about it.
For instance, I’m coming back to this post now (a couple of days later) and working to finish up my thought.
I am glad that I am able to recognize this in myself and can work to improve it. I know I need to be better at intentionally thinking before I speak.
It is hard for me because I love talking.
I used to worry about annoying or bothering people… But,
I love hearing people’s ideas and beliefs, their likes and dislikes… the things that make their heartbreak and the things that make them laugh until they cry. I love talking about our great God and everything pertaining to His glory. I love talking about baking, sewing, and the sunset.
I love talking to you!
I have come to accept this about myself. (Although, I know there is a time for silence and resting in it.)
I’m not perfect.
So, I don’t know why I expect my words (or the way I say or pronounce them) to be. I can be self-critical to a fault. We make mistakes. We’re human.
That isn’t an excuse.
I don’t get to say, “Well, I’m human that happens. It’s okay.”
By the grace of God I get to live another day to do better.
To try again. To constantly be challenging myself and striving to be more like Christ. Am I going to mess up? You bet. Am I going to stumble and struggle and get discouraged? Yes, I am. But, I am choosing not to live in it. I am choosing to seek God and accept His amazing grace, unfailing love and forgiveness that He offers me so freely. I do not deserve it… but, I am choosing joy and love and truth. Whenever I go to write or when I feel nervous in conversation I say a quick prayer and hand it to God.
May all Glory be to Him.
I share this little peek at my heart with you in hopes of encouraging you to speak out. Even when you’re scared. Even when you think your voice may shake or feel as though you won’t have the right words or you’ll say them “funny.”
Let God’s Word and love pour through you.
We were built for communication and relationship and sharing God’s love so don’t let worry or fear stop you.
When was a time you wish you would have spoken up?
What do you wish you had said?
What can you say next time?
What is something you struggle with?
What are you doing to fix it?
Until next time; I pray your day, every day, is blessed.